Thursday, January 14, 2010

Learning a powerful lesson about addiction

When I hear or think about addiction. I usually think of the three big addictive chemicals: drugs, nicotine, and alcohol. After some reflection, I think of sex addictions like pornography and masturbation, anonymous, and violent sex, etc. I don't usually think of pop. But, that got me yesterday.

I stopped drinking diet sodas on Monday "cold turkey." I actually had my last pop on Sunday afternoon so Monday was my first day without it. I had run out and so I just stopped. I got a slight headache on Monday and felt fine on Tuesday. Then, yesterday, I was at home in the afternoon feeling just fine. I felt like a nap so I laid my head down for a quick 15 minute power nap. A half-hour later, I awoke as though I hadn't even laid down. I stood up and immediately felt a strong headache accompanied by a sick stomach. It felt like someone was taking an axe and pounding on the back of my left eyeball. I cancelled my evening appointment and laid back down in bed. My headache wouldn't go away and, if I moved, my stomache would just turn and turn almost to the point of vomiting. I laid in bed from 5:00 pm until 10:15 sleeping on and off and, finally, at 10:15, sleeping solidly until 2:30.

I awoke at 2:30 am and I stood up to go to the bathroom. My first thought was that, even though my stomach still wasn't a hundred percent, my headache was gone. I rejoiced! I smiled and laughed and went back to bed to read for a couple of hours before sleeping for another 4 hours after all of that. I was initially worried about cancer and other brain abnormalities. And then it struck me. I had all the symptoms of an addict in detox. I was jittery. I had no energy. I was addicted to caffeine.

The crazy thing is that, today, I've felt good all day and my hunger has subsided. Maybe it's just that my stomach still isn't back to normal but, supposedly, diet pop makes you crave food and I was constantly thinking about my next meal and constantly snacking.

There are a lot of things that we don't think of as addictions that probably are. I wonder what else in my life I need to give up in order to be a better disciple.

1 comment:

Kris Egan said...

How about Farmville ... for a start? LOL!